I am desperate for You!!!

Hello Again! Well, I just wanted to share what God has been doing in my life....

I suppose I can say right now, I am so desperate for God. I need him so desperately in my life because I know if He does not take me, mold me, make me, rescue me, heal me, lead me, guide me, be my all in all...
I will completely crumble. I know I won't make it...I won't make another day.
Has anyone ever been there and feels the desperation like I feel, bloggy friends????

I am at a complete and total standstill in my life....wondering and waiting on the Lord. I love the Psalms especially in this season in my life. Psalm 30 is what I have been reading over and over again..."Hear, O Lord and be merciful to me; O Lord, be my help."
I need HELP....not from a doctor, not from a lawyer...but from Almighty God himself....who is more powerful than anything....that will save my soul and has saved my soul from destruction both now and in the present age to come....
Jesus I need you so desperately today. I really don't want to write here about all my neediness but this is what is on my heart today....
I am hoping and praying for better days. For new direction, for confirmation to come that all this hardship was not done in vain. I am going to continue to seek and pray to my heavenly Father because I know He will see me through!!

God bless.

An update for 2012

Hello again to all my bloggy friends!!

I know it has been a while since I updated you on all the happenin's here in Guam.
To be completely honest with you, we have been going through a trial, maybe I could call it a storm that has put my focus off of things like updating blogs, laundry, goals for the New Year, cleaning house, etc...
Unfortanately, it took my mind off of trusting in the Lord too....I am working at now seeking my Father's face in this whole ordeal and taking in each moment He gives me to operate in His Spirit, in His timing, and in His grace.
I don't want to really make this post boring, sad, or have you,my bloggy friends, be concerned. Just know that our Father God is working mightily in me, revealing to me His love, His peace, and His security...for His purpose.
I want to share so much with you all about the birth of our newest lil' guy. I can't wait to put pics of him up here and the other kids. They are growing up and God is doing a work in each one of them.
Anaya prayed the other night with her face in the rug to accept Jesus in her heart. I read her a Bible Story and talked with her about Jesus and she wanted Him to come into her heart....she also saw her sister baptized in the ocean out here and so she wants to do that too. Don't know yet...but all in God's timing.
I know my oldest daughter wants me to post here more often. I will do so when the Lord allows...please pray for me. I am needy of prayer this season of my life. I used to pray for others on a pretty regular basis and people would search me out to pray for them...yet God has me here asking people to pray for me.
I love this verse, "Be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might."

Love to you...your sista in Christ

Praise to my Savior!

It's been a while since I've posted here....and, yes....we are still alive.
But more importantly....
JESUS IS ALIVE!!!!
Man, I praise God for everything He has taken me through, every thing He continues to do in my life. I have had some low, low times here in Guam and I would love to update you on what the Lord has been doing in my life. Yet, I will just praise Him today and give Him thanks and give Him all the glory and honor for what He has done.

I am going to heaven and not to hell, so I praise you Jesus.
I am a new creature, the old has gone, so I praise you Jesus.
You took ALL my sin away, so I praise you Jesus.
I do not have to sin again, so I praise you Jesus.
You keep all your promises, so I praise you Jesus.
Your word is true, you have conquered the world, so I praise you Jesus.
I am of God and I have overcome them, because greater is He that is in me than is over the world. (derived from 1John 4:4)
Thank you Jesus for picking me up out of the miry clay and setting my feet on solid foundation.

You are the only way, the only truth and the only life.
Death could not hold You....You are truth....and I pray that I can continue to seek You and You alone in all that I do.

HAPPY RESURRECTION DAY EVERYONE!!

Walk by faith

Well I am eating brownie batter at almsot 12 o'clock midnight here in Guam....

I am really bad about keeping up with this blog. I want to continue to update and tell whats happenin' here, where America's Day begins....

I am so thankful we found a church home. What an answer to prayer! I love the people there and the girls have found some friends that they connect with. I am looking forward to growing and serving with this body of believers.
One other thing that I had prayed for was a mentor. I so badly and desparately want a woman in my life that has walked with the Lord longer than I to pray with me and to listen to me blab about my relationship with the Lord and to give me Godly wisdom....I haven't found one yet but continue to pray for one to come...maybe from the church?

I really had an emotionally exhausting day today. I feel so compassionate about the lost and I physically feel the heartbreak that I am sure God feels as His people turn and stray away from Him. I was once lost and so I know how it was to run my "own" life and to believe the lies of the enemy, thinking that I was in control....but praise be to the Lord that I am saved only by His grace and mercy....

I guess I am writing this because I have hung out and conversed with people just recently who do not know the Lord. Sad to say, I have not really gotten out much since being here and when I do it is to take the kids to church-related activities where most of the people there are saved....so to be back into the "world" so to speak was somewhat of a shock that people still think and believe the devil's lies...but again, I was there at one time and so I believed the tricks, schemes, and deception of the enemy too. I wonder to myself why and how God can allow such evil and atrocity in this world? He is all-knowing...He knows our hearts...each and every "good" and evil person's heart He knows. He knows our thoughts before we think them. So why Lord....why let evil still reign on this Earth?

The Lord today reminded me of Romans 8:28..."All things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose." And so I stand on His word and His word alone.....I believe, I have hope, through the nastiness that this world can bring and has recently been brought into reality again for me.....I have faith and I will walk by faith and not by sight.....

Change

Hello family and friends,

Well we have officially moved into our rental home. The Lord provided a nice 4 bedroom 3 bath place with our own semi private beach. Our furniture and other stuff arrived here on Monday and Tuesday....so we have been trying to unpack these last few days. Still got a lot more work on the house to do but we are doing a little here and there in between the girls activities, work, soccer practice, schoolwork, and church. We still don't have internet but hopefully within the next couple of days we will have it set up. I have a lot to share about what the Lord is doing in our lives. I know that whenever their is a change in my environment God is working a change in my heart...particularly about this whole concept of change. Everything is new and different and so I need to trust Him that this change is to grow me and mold me more into the image of his Son for His purposes and plans...for He says, "I know the plans I have for you...plans to prosper you and not to harm you..." Wish I could type more..but I am doing this on my cell phone on a tiny keyboard. Please know that I am praying for you.....

Hafa Adai!!

I am writing this post in Guam!!!! Yes, we are finally here and we are currently living in a hotel. This hotel is lots and lots of fun....

First of all, I like the maid service. I could personally live here the whole time we are here but of course it would be way out of the budget....

So I am enjoying the time that we are here now! There are lots of activities for the kids to do here...waterslides, a splash pool, a kiddie pool, kayaking, a kids club....which makes it hard to do schoolwork!! The weather is so nice here...in the 80's and mostly sunny. It rained a few times while we were here, but not for long.

We went to a church this past Sunday and enjoyed the praise and worship and the message....of course it wasn't like Manna and we miss Manna so much! I don't know if we will find a church quite like that out here. I am praying that the Lord will lead us to the right church...even if it doesn't seem like the right one to us.

The girls have been making "friends" while staying here at the resort. I put that in quotes because some of these friends do not speak English and so it is hard to communicate with them...but somehow just playing with them and swimming with them is enough to be a playmate!

Many of the people here, especially in this area where we are staying speak Japanese, Korean, or Chamoru. We have been learning a few simple phrases in these different languages.

The girls are going to AWANA at a Baptist church here. They of course like it a lot and the people there are very friendly. They have a service there for adults and a nursery for the little ones.

I am enjoying all that God has blessed us with while we are here...I haven't cooked in a while and haven't had to clean up very much as the maids do a wonderful job of coming to the room almost everyday...
We are still house hunting and will hopefully find a place soon. In the meantime, I am enjoying this place so much and trying to get myself ready for the "real" world soon!

Well just wanted to stop here and say Hafa Adai (hello in Chamoru) and Adios for now. I will update again as the Lord leads....much love and prayers to you all!

the view from our hotel, 18th floor:

another view of Guam from the shoreline:

swimming in the kiddie pool at the resort:

update

Hello to you blogger friends!!!

Well it has been quite a while since my last update. We are in Ohio right now and will be leaving for Guam on Friday. We are busy packing suitcases and getting ready for the long flight. Hope to update this blog once we get there....we will be staying in a hotel for a while until housing becomes available on the Navy or Air Force base.

We are looking forward to going to Guam. We feel like missionaries ready to do God's will wherever He takes us.

Much love to you all!!! Please continue to pray for us....you are in our prayers!!!

So thankful for Jesus!!